If strength was borne from heartache, then mountains I could move..

Hey everyone. So basically I am writing because I am bored and I don't wanna work on my rough draft of my senior sem which is due on wed and I haven't started it yet. I've grown quite apathetic this year and really just want the school year to end so I can move on to the next chapter of my life. However, I'm not exactly sure what the next chapter of my life is supposed to be at this point. As fas as I can tell I'm going to go to law school somewhere and try to put myself back together as best I can. Where and how I plan on doing this are still under much debate. There is a large part of me that simply wants to leave Minnesota and attempt to start somewhere new, I mean I would certainly miss all my friends and such but being on my own really doesn't bother me and an area where no one knows anything about me is something that has a strong appeal to me. I guess a large part of my decision will be based on the actual lsat score I get. This will be a large source of anxiety for me for the next month. Everyone seems to react oddly when I say things like I wanna go somewhere where nobody knows who I am. I guess I'm just a really solitary person. Or maybe I just wanna do it on my own without any type of major assistance. I mean I like having people around a fair bit of the time but there is also a great deal of time that I would prefer to be alone. Also, I love my friends but if live near any of them I know they will attempt to drag me out with them. Which in reality is just a waste of time by both parties. First of all, I'm not a fan of parties or bars and the events that transpire at them. Second, the last thing I wanna do is ruin what could potentially be fun for other people by suffering through whatever I m talked into going to. Third, it just isn't fun for me. I never get the whole going out is good for you schpeal. I mean I realize the consequences of my choices and I am willing to deal with those. It's not even like the consequences are that bad so I end up spending some time alone doing something I enjoy, god forbid that should happen. Honestly, it's not like I'm addicted to crack or anything. I'm hoping law school will provide some positive change for me, a change that I have needed for quite awhile. I hate to admit it but my bitter old grand father correctly described life as one unpleasant change after another shortly before he died. This phrase pretty much encompasses the last two years of my life. I just really need something good to happen. In other news I will be T.A. ing for a history class next semester. I don't know how I keep getting offered these positions, obviously the profs don't know me very well:) Professor Shorb who offered me the job said he was impressed by my maturity(lol wtf), acamdemic ability(ha!), and classroom presence(wtf does this even mean?). I think the UMM faculty seriously over rates my abilities,however it gets me paid so their bad. I do wanna thank everyone who called,messaged, or personally spoke to me about the lsat and inquired about how it went and/or wished me luck on it. All of your kind words are appreciated and I hope that I was able to live up to my own expectations and make all of you proud as well. Anywayz that's all I got for now so remember I love everyone of ya and happy and safe holidays to all of you. Peace and much love.

-Jake